yanwah;

2011-06-12T16:20:00.001+08:00

http://www.adventour.com.sg/dayactivities.htm

Singapore can be fun :D (if you're rich) :(

2011-06-10T22:39:00.002+08:00

I'm not trying to gain attention/make anyone jealous but...

I have the best bunch of girlfriends and the best boyfriend ever! :D

So lucky ^^

2011-05-30T17:00:00.005+08:00

Not my first P5 camp. Let's just say, I'm glad it's over. This camp was super drama-mama.

One more camp to survive. I'm actually pretty looking forward to it now, just that the timing of the briefing is completely screwed up! :(

FINALLY PASSED MY BTT. 50/50 ^^

Just wanted to say that I AM THE LUCKIEST GIRL ON EARTH :D

2011-05-20T22:07:00.003+08:00

HELLO WORLD ^^

Meh, I want to get this shirt so badly but they don't deliver it to Singapore! :( Actually I'm quite happy about it heh, cause I have an extra bonus when I go to Europe!! :D

Life has been so good to me this year. Thank you world! :D Just that day, someone said I'm too happy go lucky to be the eldest child of the family! HAHAHAH. Well, it's all in the attitude :) Just smile more, laugh freely, give more chances, don't judge and take things as they go! :D

Was a bit upset just now but felt better than alright after a quick nap. POWER OF SLEEP ^^ <3 ALSO. I just wanted to say, I'M SUCH A LUCKY GIRL ^^

Good things come to those who smile :D Such a random post hahaha :P

2011-05-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

Let the rain wash away, all the pain of yesterday.

Tomorrow's a brand new day and tomorrow starts in 13 minutes time! I am so excited :)

Need to satisfy my subway craving! Heh heh ><

2011-05-10T01:07:00.002+08:00

Love life, love yourself.

Cause life's beautiful, and so are you :)

2011-05-07T21:42:00.002+08:00

I think it's super silly how everyone keeps harping on the high standards of living, inflation, foreign talents etc... Yet nobody talks about how quickly PAP saved us from our recession. And the inflation rates that should have been so much higher at the rate we're trading our goods. You say you've done your homework for the elections, have you really?

People are saying "OH THE GOVERNMENT ARE NOT HELPING ALL THE POOR PEOPLE IN SINGAPORE!" Neither are most of you. Pot calling the kettle black? How many Singaporeans actually volunteer to help the needy? We, as a nation have so much more power than the government to help the needy because there are so much more of us. Yet how are we helping them? By ignoring them. Honestly, I think the only time most of us realise that there are poor people around is when we need a reason to hate PAP.

Yes, our current issues scream out to us while the problems of the recent past are no longer talked about. At that rate, obviously PAP sucks right. Geesh -.- It's not that I'm clinging on to past victories that I'm forsaking future progress. I'm just saying that Singaporeans are expecting the government to be PERFECT. They forget that the government's just made out of people and that even geniuses make mistakes. Even if the opposition wins, they're bound to make mistakes too. It's not that I'm against them, I'm just stating facts.

Stop picking out the flaws only goodness. Oh well, votes are casted already! No matter what the result is, let's move on as a nation and make the best of what we can! ><

PAP please win over West Coast GRC!! :D I think the West Coast GRC PAP team has been doing an amazingly good job all these years and I hope they win in over again!

I actually want to colour everything but that'll be pretty redundant T.T

2011-05-06T16:23:00.002+08:00

I like how high-5 's are a way to say:

Yay you rock!
Yes we owned them flat!
I agree with you!
Ahh same here!
We're awesome!!

Stereotypes

2011-05-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

You know, I think our society is too quick to judge and too slow to compliment.

You see someone with a tattoo, what will you think of him/her?
You see someone with a mohawk, what will you think of him/her?

Emo. Rebel. Cold hearted. Gangster. Murderer. Drug addict. Smoker. Seeking attention.

Creative. Artistic. Living life.

I know super nice people who have tattoos, mohawks, scars, discipline records... The scars were from protecting a girl from breaking her spine. The discipline records were from going against bullies who were disturbing his classmate. The tattoos were due to his/her admiration of art. The mohawks were there cause they were trying new stuffs. I asked a volunteer with a tattoo why he volunteered (I ask everyone this, chill) and he said:

You don't need a reason to give back to the society and help people.

How many of the not "goth" kids actually say that?!

There's this hawker centre where the Western food stall guy has a ginormous tattoo of a dragon on his leg. He walked by me and I plucked up the courage to say that it was really nice and I was sincere about it. He actually smiled at me, thanked me and said that nobody ever told him that. Why? Out of fear? Yes, it took me some courage to tell him that. That already means that I was afraid of him at first. Just step out of your comfort zone, it's a beautiful garden out there.

Stop stereotyping, please. Too quick to judge, no?

Too slow to compliment, do I even need to elaborate? We need to give compliments on the spot to make it seem sincere. We sometimes hold back our encouragements/compliments because we are shy. However, you have no idea what a huge deal your compliment may be to the recipient. I guess I'm somewhat guilty of this? If a person is pretty or kind or whatever, I'd let them know. Yet there are some issues closer to the heart (I do mean compliments) that I still cannot express :/ I'm still learning, and I hope all of us will do the same thing!

I have realised that after I started telling people how awesome they are, I started feeling so much better! For one, I guess it's cause I'm letting out how I feel inside :)

Gracious society? Judge less, compliment more and complain less.

2011-05-01T23:26:00.003+08:00

Ranted to my mum about how upset I was with my dad and how it was so unfair that when I come home at 11, they complain it's late. This is Singapore, not where you grew up in.

"No, to me, 11 is not early at all. As long as it's dark, anything can happen. It's for your own good."

-End of conversation-

Dear parents,

Stop using the ultimatum. It hurts more than it heals.

<3, kids.

2011-04-29T19:06:00.002+08:00

Hello! :D

I did two volunteer activities today, one at Nam Hong and one at IMH! Happy!!! :D

The first lady I talked to was so grumpy! I asked her why she was unhappy and she said it was none of my business :( Then I told her a bit about myself in hope she'd start opening up, but she just said "厉害咯!" !!! :(

The next guy I talked to was waiting for his wife. They were so friendly! Even after the wife took her medicine, she sat down to continue talking to me :D Told me about their finance issues and their 败家子. Reported the issue :)

The last guy I chatted with was a garang guni who used to be super poor to begin with :( Yet he's still so cheerful! He truly inspires me!! :) Chatted with him and reported the issue.

"You made a difference to two families today!" :D Heh I sure hope so! :)

My volunteer leader was pretty impressed with me and she nominated me to be a volunteer leader too! Now I'm confused and thinking if I should take up the position!

Second was IMH! WHATTT!?

It was a big eye opener! I'd totally go there again ^^ The people were super friendly! John forced the people to give me a packet of cookies cause I was part of the team who won! ^^ Hahah super cute they all :)

<3 Volunteering so much! :) Oh and everyone thinks that the beneficiaries like young people more! Cause I always can get the old people to tell me their problems and my IMH friends really seem to like talking to me! :D So... Young people, PLEASE VOLUNTEER! :D

2011-04-28T19:01:00.003+08:00

Eating so much CHOCOLATES and YAMI YOGURT.

Life's so good ^^

2011-04-27T02:01:00.003+08:00

What my kids from my 3rd camp said <3

A few facils from my last camp! <3

Volunteers! :)

Heheh I got mummy liking yami yogurt too!^^

2011-04-25T13:28:00.002+08:00

I have came to a realisation how lucky I am!

I have a SUPER comfortable bed which takes away my bad days!
I have the cutest soft toy dog who I can pour all my sorrows to!
I have a dad who cares! He may be over protective sometimes but hey, he can give sound advice and he cares :D
I have a mum who's like my best friend, I can tell her ALMOST everything :D
I have a brother whom I can tell things I can't tell my mum!
I have friends who are concerned and funny ^^
I have a working washing machine and shower.
I have starbucks in the vicinity.
I have an awesome home.
I have time to do things I want to for now.
I have a goal in life.
I have faith that someone up there is looking over us :)
I have enough money to survive.
I believe that people are kind hearted.
I believe in miracles.

The list goes on heheh but I think you guys are bored LOL.

I may be fat but I can lose weight! :D
& I believe that Yami yogurt would open outlets in WCP and vivo soon! :D

Count your blessings.

2011-04-21T23:18:00.003+08:00

Doing volunteer work is awesome. You know sometimes you get caught up with all the hustle and bustle of life that you think the world is cruel and unfeeling? By doing volunteer work, I have met good people, nice people. People who care, people who want to make a difference.

I have met people who take leaves off work just to volunteer. I have met people who spend their every holiday volunteering instead of resting. I met a couple who is on vacation in singapore for 2 months and spent one whole month volunteering :)

In the past, I thought that the world was too caught up in their own business to bother about others. Doing volunteer work showed me that there are many individuals who are searching for ways to help those in need :)

This feeling's awesome. I can't wait to meet more people like this :)

2011-04-20T11:12:00.004+08:00

We sometimes get so absorbed in the pursue for money and power that we eventually forget why we even started the chase to begin with...

We just want to be happy.

Why do we need love? So that we wouldn't be lonely and be happy.
Why do we need money? So that we can buy all the things we want and feel happy.
Why do we need to be pretty? So that people will look at you and think you look good, you feel better about yourself and hence happy.

Just think about it. If we want to be truly happy, we got to find it inside and not from anything else.

Give life a chance.

Count your blessings
Forget the grudges
Keep on smiling
Never look back
Don't give up
Help somebody up
Never regret anything
Dare to love.

2011-04-18T18:02:00.002+08:00

DID SOMEONE SAY...

YAMI YOGURT!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Love it, peach flavoured with rainbow pebbles <3

2011-04-17T22:56:00.002+08:00

Hey :)

I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.

- Audrey Hepburn

Beautiful girl, beautiful soul :)

2011-04-12T17:58:00.001+08:00

I secretly like the rain. Shss :)

2011-04-02T23:07:00.003+08:00

I lost my cheap, but favorite necklace :( Shall return to this blog, but I'm treating it like my personal twitter :)

2010-11-28T23:05:00.002+08:00

I feel as if Google doesn't know that I exist! Okay so this is what happened. I went to Google, typed my name in all sorts of forms in the image category and... I went through 10 pages of images and my picture/blogskin was not even there! :( My blogskin used to be there, in the first page! I guess this just goes to show how bad I've been maintaining this blog :(

Anyways, for those of you who didn't know, A levels are finally going to be over on thursday!! :D So exciting. Cannot wait to celebrate those super belated birthdays and start painting my walls! Ahhh, holidays are the best :D

I guess the papers have not been very smooth sailing so far. I may end up retaking A levels as a private candidate :/ Silly me, I threw away all my stuffs already (other than for biology) I certainly do not hope so though, I'd rather go overseas than to relive this hell T.T I don't really know how to describe how I feel now. I've been married to the books for 12 years already. For 12 years, my education plan was already written out for me. I had rules to follow and everything. Going to the university would be a brand new experience, especially if it was an overseas university. Let's just say that I'm more excited than anything else!

And more importantly, I'm so excited for my 8 months holiday! Plus, my dad agreed to get me a DSLR for my 18th birthday *beams in delight* heh. I've been wanting it since I entered Photog in 2006 and it's already 2010! My skills aren't really good but I'd have time to practice!

Life is going to get better, I just know it.

You know about all those stabbing cases in Singapore, yes? Well, the police have really been stepping up checks and everything recently. Just yesterday, I saw two policemen checking a group of teenagers at a bus stop at around 4.30pm. I wonder what kind of message this sends out to Singaporeans?

Teenagers: Oh man, the society doesn't trust us anymore.
To worsen things, teenagers are already so misunderstood! Will this worsen things or tame things down? I really don't know.

Adults: What is wrong with this generation?
Yea, what is wrong with everyone who thinks we are... dangerous pests?
Adults: Singapore is so unsafe now.
And then they start to migrate.
Adults: Singapore is much safer now.
Ideal situation for government.

Idk but as a teenager who is going to change into a young adult soon, I really believe that teenagers are the most misunderstood bunch of people. In addition, most of us are really harmless. And it is wrong to assume someone is a gangster just because s/he has a tattoo.

Hey, let's all stop for a moment and think... Do we really have to use this sort of treatment? Or can we use a little more... trust?

A random collation of thoughts.

2010-10-17T02:21:00.003+08:00

Hello! I can't believe I actually decided to post. It's 2.22am and A levels are nearing :/

Anyhows, I've realised that many people do things because everyone else is doing it. From watching a movie all the way to having premarital sex.

WHAT!?

I don't know but I genuinely feel that just because everyone is doing it doesn't mean you have to do it. And the fact that everyone is doing it doesn't make it right! People tend to say that they want to know what other people are talking about/want to be part of the discussion. Come on, your friends wouldn't judge you just because you don't follow the latest trend! Those who do aren't worthy of your friendship. And if you do, you aren't really worthy of much friendship either.

If they do, then they're undeserving to be your friend. Or they're just superficial and ignorant.

Just because I refuse to watch Twilight doesn't make me an alien.
Just because I cannot drink Koi doesn't mean we don't have other topics to talk about.
Just because I don't follow all the hip songs doesn't mean that we're strangers.
Just because I don't like to wear the latest clothes doesn't give you the right to stop going out with me (or probably it does. So it gives me the rights to ignore you.)

Just because you have your flaws didn't stop me from befriending you, alright?

This stupid trend about following the trend in order to be part of the IN-crowd is silly. Seriously. To me, at least. If you do not agree or if you are judging me right now, WHATEVER. If you feel hurt by this, it probably goes to show that you follow trends for the sake of how you want people to perceive you to be. I'm sorry to have hurt your feelings (I really don't want to), but it's really... A waste of time.

Anyways, I was thinking that all of us, should give back to the society at some point of life. Human beings are really self centred creatures, if you ask me. The only consistency in life is that humans get more and more full of themselves because they think they are the superior race.

Reality check: We are really stupid because we built things smarter than us and things that we will die without -- Technology.

Please, just start giving back already. The world population is increasing so much and resources are becoming really scarce. If you ask me, I think we would have to soon start killing people who are not worthy to share this Earth. And it will start with those who have no heart for animals and the environment. Then those who start abusing people non stop.

Also, I would like to thank you so much. I have heard stories about people around me getting abused/cheated and stuff like that in their supposedly special parts of their life. Thanks for making that short period a memorable one, at least for the time the feeling lasted. I constantly think that you started treating me very horribly because you placed me behind every other person and I'd hate it. Honestly? I think it's better than being cheated on/abused. Either way, it was a lovely one year.

2010-06-21T23:41:00.002+08:00

I don't want to change anything in my phone&laptop.
I don't want to change my habits =/
I hate waking up and falling asleep cause I'm so used to reporting to you when I wake up or go to bed. I picked up my phone last night, typed a goodnight message and deleted everything. I woke up today and realised that I got to change this habit of mine.
The only thing that keeps me going is that we're still friends.

This is easier and harder than I expected.

2010-06-20T23:36:00.002+08:00

I got reminded of the existance of this page!

March 15 till June 20, 3 months and 5 days...

You know what? I'm pretty sure A's are going to suck more than O's. And that's cause there will be no one to send me home/ take the same bus as me/ meet me during the middle of the day/ come to my house to study/ text me and so on during A's. Also, there would be no one to come to my house to study before A's anymore.

Oh well, life goes on.

I know you're reading this. It's neither of our fault. Fate just made a fool out of me.

2010-03-15T18:57:00.001+08:00

Somebody, anybody, everybody..

Save me from this stupid illusion, please.

2010-03-11T23:18:00.001+08:00

Bahhhhhhh, I really lost every single inch of motivation to blog.

I need to feel contented, I don't know how happy it feels to get an A anymore. Everyone says they're good but I knew I could do better.

No more satisfaction, only desperation.

2010-02-21T00:00:00.003+08:00

This was taken on 13th november 2009! After we finished our PW Oral Presentation! I miss Begum for nuts :( Anyway, I remember being very happy after the Presentation. After which we went to get our result slips and I was actually rather sad she had to retain :( And we got free sunflowers cause Timmy gave it to us! :D Hehehe yay :D It was kindness day and first anniversary dinner. Had dinner with R

I brought an orange to school on friday and was cuddling it around school cause I didn't want it to make my bag a bag filled with orange juice! And I repeated the same thing at least 2o times. I BROUGHT THE ORANGE TO EAT NOT TO BAI NIAN T.T

I had a Biology test on mitosis and meiosis yesterday too so I immediately said that this was a chromosome and it has kinetochore spindle fibres! :D Glenice and WeiQi simply gave me the -.- face :(

I found this quite amusing. I was craving for prata so I typed this in my calculator. Needed to use it soon so I pressed the "=" button and was expecting an "ERROR". BUT NOOOO! A ZERO CAME OUT!
Heh :P

PRATA! = ZERO

My dog was licking my cow cause he thought she was beef. And she was trying to push him away. Bull fights!

Life have been treating me as per normal. Sometimes I think to myself that I need to work harder cause I feel like I'm starting to slack. :( Then again, the results aren't bad. Guess I can take another two weeks to start heating up my engines again :) If there was one thing I've learnt from my O levels, it would be:

Starting too early and letting your engines burn before the race ends leaves you more damage then pushing them for three months.

Whatever :) For now, I'd make a list of people I miss. Short one of course :) I miss the 2A1 girls, the 4C1 people, R! :( I met Eugene today and it was quite weird. He was in Sumo house and R said " Eugene leh!" So I kept waving from outside and so many people turned to look at me but Eugene just couldn't spot me! :( When I was leaving, he suddenly saw me and finally waved. It was quite funny cause we were doing hand gestures and I noticed another girl looking at what I was doing =/

I've taken a new liking for the word "BAHHHHH" and I've started to enjoy jogging/running :D Addicted to VANHOUSTEN's raisins and assorted chocolates :D Been eating a lot more vegetables but I gained weight! NEED TO RUN MORE!

Okay this post can go on forever 'cause I haven't been doing a proper update for sooo long! Oh my brother bought me the Phantom of the Opera CD! :D

2010-02-06T19:48:00.003+08:00

I've helped Haiti so please don't spam my wall :(

4C1 Nerds who went back for the alumni night :)

Weilong's birthday party.

Actually a lot have been happening but I'm really lazy to steal more photos from facebook. Been under quite a bit of stress trying to catch up with work to compensate the one week I lost. I even had my jaw locked due to my muscles been overworked :( Went to see a dentist and would need to go back on the 24th :( Those who know me would know that I'm super scared of dentists :( But hey! I've caught up and I really don't have much to do these few days so I went to revise a bit of J1 stuffs. Forgot quite a bit:(

You guys must have realised that for this year, Valentine's day falls on Chinese New Year. That is damn sad :( But it doesn't need to be Valentine's day to spend time with your Valentine!

After giving much thought to a few issues, I really came to a realisation that we have to value ourselves more than others value us. Shall not go into details but I guess that's it for now so BYEEEE.

2010-01-10T16:05:00.002+08:00

I thought it was about time to feed this dead space. Finally back from Korea,Thailand and Hong Kong.

I was thinking that it would be so sweet to spend Valentine's day with the one you love. With flowers or a teddy bear with a small box of chocolates. A personalised card, a hug and a kiss to end it all. In Singapore, we can stroll down Clarke Quay and enjoy the sea breeze and the beautiful lights. It would be even nicer if there was musicians dressed in those sailor suits or whatever playing romantic and chirpy music. If the government was kind, he would allow all couples to take the Singapore flyer for free on that special date. We'd see men rushing down to florists to order flowers one or two days before the day itself and collecting the flowers on February the 14th. And we'd see a few guys propose to their special ladies on the magical night. I can hear the laughters and see the smiles. Valentine's day is a wonderful day for those who are attached. For those who are not, they'd spend it with their closest group of friends and talk about anything, everything that they have not known about.

Valentine's day is supposed to be the most romantic night of the year. Furthermore, it lands on a Sunday this year! Imagine those happy couples spending the day/night together. They can celebrate from Saturday to Sunday and not get bored of each other's company. Sadly, it falls smack on Chinese New Year. How romantic -.-

2009-12-09T13:55:00.002+08:00

I'm going to Korea! Not to find Wondergirls / Boys Over Flowers / Super Junior 'cause it really doesn't concern me :P

Imma going for the snow yo.

So I'd see you guys on the 14th :D

2009-12-07T22:41:00.002+08:00

Nothing's been happening recently;
But my mind's forever so occupied :(

Every girl has her moments,
I am superman.

<3

2009-11-24T21:49:00.004+08:00

Liangqian taking a photo of her birthday cake. Heh :P

Fish & Co. staff bullying Denise. They are ~~good~~ AWESOME.

Been missing for ages. Forgive me :P Liangqian's and Denise's birthdays are over! And the 2A1 girls had fun celebrating their very special birthdays :) Picnics, fake snow. Surprise surprise! :D I'd upload some videos on facebook soon, when I'm less lazy. Oops XD

Anyway, I had been going back to CTSS almost everyday last week to help the Sec. 2's with their SDMA. Sadly, only a draft can be handed in. Ouch :( We may not be able to win this year. Which makes me keep thinking back on our SDMA. We had our fair bit of unhappiness and fun, but we completed it altogether. Love that bunch of people.

Went to visit SA last thursday. HEHHHH I LOVE THE UNIFORM. Seriously, I went on the wrong week >.<" I hate lecture week, so boring! :( Hello Cordelia, I didn't see you there and I got super bored during assembly :(

Went to IKEA today after catching Fantastic Mr. Fox at Vivo. Shit, that show sucks. I really don't know what's going on with me. I had meatballs only around 5 times and I'm sick of it :( Oh boy, next time I can save money and buy a $1 hotdog instead of $6.50 worth of swedish meatballs.

I'm getting boring. It's because the holidays have been too interesting for me to have any interest in blogging.

I. SHALL. START. DOING. HOMEWORK. TOMORROW. :(.

Project Work

2009-11-14T20:33:00.002+08:00

There is only one thing which makes up a group --
People.
There is only one thing which makes up a good group --
Teamwork.

Now that project work is officially over, I'd like to conclude my PW journey with a simple post.

Firstly, what makes the difference to anyone doing PW is their group. Before our OP yesterday, my group and I were talking about the Written Report we have done. They were like, " I think Yanwah did everything, I felt like I did nothing." But I said," I don't feel like I have did anything either". Then Aileen commented that this is group work. You do a bit and she does a bit but you put them together and it turns out complete. Yes, that is group work. So to my dear JJ173, thank you!

Secondly, it is OP! OP was yesterday. It was so hard to sleep the night before because I kept thinking about Q&A! I must say that I think my group did well! I started talking faster at the end I think but oh well, I'm sure they can understand me ^^ Q&A was fine. I was the first speaker, but they asked me my question last! And they took around 5 minutes just to think about my question O.O And the worst thing was, nobody ever prepared me for that question! It was so unexpected, especially when I was the first speaker :( But the question didn't stumble me ^^ 'Cause Russell had been telling me some information on obesity, which really helped :D

"You have 5 strategies, that's a lot. If you can only implement 1, which would it be and why?"

I hope I didn't make a fool out of myself D: But the teachers seemed pretty pleased with my first answer, so I guess it should be fine^^

So that's it for PW. ~~Short~~ and sweet.

Do you guys know that I am going to Korea in December? I'd be on the same flight ( both to and fro ) with Zhibin and Yangjun! Haha, that's quite interesting. However, I doubt we'd even talk to each other on the flight.

Went shopping at Vivo with mummy today <3! And I'm going to watch 2012 tomorrow! :D Happy! :D

Anniversary <3

2009-11-13T21:45:00.001+08:00

Other than for the pictures we took, the presentation and the video we did, i deleted everything related to pw.

It's over.

Happy happy day <3

Colourful

2009-11-11T20:00:00.002+08:00

I like the new blogskin :D it's C-O-L-O-U-R-F-U-L!

I was trying so hard to sleep around 2am yesterday, but I failed :/ It was so scary :( Can you imagine the things and people so close to you becoming so d i s t a n t? It's like you're standing on a railway track, and the person you love so much is in the train, slowly leaving you.

Ouch

Glad to say that everything is over now :D I hope. Oral presentation is on friday, and my group is meeting at Yew Tee 9.30am tomorrow. YEW TEE. NINE-THIRTY AM. oh godddddd MUMMY :(

Today was a good, fruitful and tiring day. Mummy and I went winter clothes shopping. Now I'm kinda worried if we got too thick a jacket :/ Oh boy...

I'm sane :)

The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four Americans is suffering
from some form of mental illness. Think of your three best friends. If they're
okay, then it's you.
-Rita Mae Brown

I want to change my blogskin.

2009-11-10T23:17:00.003+08:00

I know, emo posts are always dreaded but are somewhat interesting to read once in a while. Happy posts are sometimes so bimbotic but yet, so colourful. OOPSY DAISY~~~~~

Sadly, i don't feel anything:/

I'm glad that everything is going to be over soon. All those shit and all. Everything you give a damn for never gives a damn about you. They just start being annoying and bitchy and you start going round and round in circles.

But you know, life is a long difficult journey.

When I was in primary school, I always looked at the alumni and wondered when I would ever be like them. Then psle came and i was finally done and over with the primary school which I never felt like i belonged in. Strange, primary school is where you spend the longest time in, yet where I feel the least sense of belonging to. Thank god it's over. So I moved on to secondary school and wow, I really felt like I belonged there. Maybe I was never meant to be in an elite school. yea, it has to be. The people, the grades, the attitude, the environment, the fun... I doubt I could breathe in an elite school. I must say, 4C1 really matters a lot to me. They made O levels so much less scary. All the late night studying and all. O levels were finally over and the grades came back. Every grade I got back just keeps haunting me till now. I don't know if all the late night studying was worth it or not. But one thing I must say, I really realised that studying at home is a lot more productive for me. Lesson learnt. And now, I'm embarking on my A levels. I must not fail again. Oh boy, life is a difficult journey. After A levels, I would be happy. And that's what I tell myself all the time. The 8 months of holidays, yay. During these 8 months, I will pamper myself. Oh I so look forward to it. But no, I want to work and earn money cause you know, you can't pamper yourself without money. Sigh, life is a difficult journey. Then there would be 4 years of uni and finally, we are free. Excuse me, free? No, we would not be free. We would be out in the society, slogging our guts out for survival. What is freedom?

A long chunk of boringness I know. That, is life.

2009-11-01T22:00:00.000+08:00

you're a big bad bully

2009-10-30T16:23:00.002+08:00

they gave me the best birthday present <3

at ikea blowing out candles which were never lighted

they stick to each other O.O

soft toys!

my favourite present.

NOTHING beats a present your best friends put in effort to do.

if yesterday was my birthday, i'd have a happy birthday.

2009-10-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

AC HAS OP PRELIMS WOW.

我梦见了不该梦到的人.

Shiyun's sleepover consisted of...

dinner
talking by the pool
shopping for snacks
learning how to put on eye make up
sleeping for 11 hours (sleepover heh)
big dimsum brunch
vivo and spending money

the photos are kinda unglam so i'd skip it.

HEY JJ INTERACT EMAILED ME HAHAHA.

okay byebye

of all the things i used to be

2009-10-19T11:14:00.002+08:00

the eventual 11 that went.

i miss being in 4C1 the most. night safari was fun :D not really worth the $22 but they made it very fun :D

2009-10-14T21:58:00.003+08:00

i'm born to remain quiet; yet noisy. when i like to be quiet, i can be so quiet that my mouth starts getting smelly Xl but when i'm noisy, everyone tells me to shut up. but i like it. i like to give speeches, get into conversations and get to know people. that's why i want to be a DJ. i get to talk :D so people think, why are you working so hard to get straight A's to be a DJ!? well, it's cause i want to work for something i want. and some people think that i can't talk well. yea, but i'm interested to learn :) i love to go for all those public speaking courses you know :D

it's weird how emotions are so easily swayed. most people know that i'm happy over the slightest things. like, figuring out how to format microsoft word. haha :O yet, i'm so easily sad.

i have admitted this fact since once upon a time and found out a simple solution. when i start getting upset, i do something to make me happy. i laugh. and yes, i get happy. it's not a fake smile, just a smile to cure my unhappiness.

i'm a strong girl; i want a happy family.

I...

2009-10-11T23:51:00.002+08:00

am not as pretty as her.
am not as cute as her.
am not as gentle as her.
am not as smart as her.
am not as funny as her.
am not as sweet as her.
am not as kind as her.
am not as considerate as her.
am not as loving as her.
am not as confident as her.
am not as charismatic as her.

that's why i'm not her.
just stop comparing me, to anyone.

2009-10-08T22:13:00.003+08:00

today was fun:D went to make chinese tea during school today for cultural exchange. fun :D went out with some cca people + weiqi for lunch today and went to see dinosaur!

i'm not posing. i'm taking a picture with yeokrui. haha!

2009-10-05T00:14:00.002+08:00

they go down on their knees and say.
dear god, please give me wealth and health.
i go down on my knees and plead,
dear god, please let me hide my tears well.

oh well, tomorrow marks the end of my promos
marks the start of the return of the grades
marks the start of the pw final sprint
marks the start of emotional matters handling.

good luck.

2009-10-05T00:07:00.001+08:00

why is it everytime i start to feel happy, everything just comes crashing down again?

fmylife

2009-10-01T22:29:00.002+08:00

while mathias and the rest have already officially declared that they are straight and have hopelessly fallen in love with taylor SWIFT, i would also love to join them:D

pardon the english, i'm in the midst of my promos. though i don't feel like it.

I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH TAYLOR LAUTNER.
<3

GIVE ME A BIG HUG

p/s: you're not allowed to scold me cause i went to watch "cheaper by the dozen 2" cause you seemed interested,

HOLY CRAP HE WAS SO CUTE IN THE SHOW I'M SALIVATING <3

oh yea oh yea <3

on a more serious note... promos sucked. math seemed bad during the 3 hours but when i came home i desperately swore a million times. 5 more marks.

oh boy, taylor LAUTNER.

education has taught me it's not good to hide my emotions :D

2009-09-18T23:09:00.002+08:00

the stupid liangqian :(
让我好想念，好想念...

rewind, replay, rewind, replay, rewind, replay.

for you i'd go through all those night studies, all the scoldings, all the tears, all the fear. just for you, i'm willing to replay those unhappy memories.

the teachers used to tell us, we'd make real friends in secondary school. i miss the people in my secondary school so much. 4C1, my girls, and nevertheless, you.

2009-09-18T00:22:00.004+08:00

so many things happened today, both good and bad.

the teachers are going high.

life's so unfair, i miss the simpler times.

the love we share, the love 4c1 has,

the love i can ever give.

2009-09-13T00:51:00.001+08:00

Dear blogger,

GIVE ME SOME MONEY.

-3m0x and desperate galx

2009-09-08T23:01:00.002+08:00

looking back,

the thing with the biggest impact on me last year was nearly losing a friend cause i got slightly closer to you. i'm glad we stuck to the status quo after 2 months or so. now we're acquaintances again and i thank god for that.

maybe,
if we were more than classmates now, we could have been friends.

then again,
would i have chosen you as a friend or choose to lose you as a friend?

2009-08-15T23:44:00.003+08:00

for more, visit we are all winnie the poohs cause we all wear red.

Tongue twister we 09s28 came up with:

THE BUM OF THE BUMBLEBEE BUMPED THE BUMPER OF THE BUMPERCAR,
WHICH GAVE THE BUMBLEBEE A BUMP ON ITS BUM.
SINCE THE BUMBLEBEE BUMPED THE BUMPER OF THE BUMPERCAR,
WHAT HAPPENED TO THE BUMPER OF THE BUMPERCAR?

yes, surrounded by mad people makes me crazy. anyway, we were thinking of doing it for A-Z. eat my guts if that happens and they can fluently say all and memorise all of them.

2009-08-13T22:31:00.001+08:00

sometimes, i feel like i'm living so much for the future that i want to achieve that i neglect the present.

the future that i work so hard for,
is the future i may not gain in return.

the present i sacrifice now,
is the present that would never come back to me.

2009-08-07T22:37:00.002+08:00

i have realised that,
when your parents give you your pocket money,
you'd be happier to spend some money on them and not just yourself.
and they'd be happier too.

i realised,
a small act can make someone very happy.
and make you feel good too.

the world used to be so simple and so good,
why did we all become so selfish?

o9s28

2009-08-07T21:53:00.002+08:00

i like the class tee design.

class/school attendance dy/dx = 0 cause it was at it's minimum point yet.

national day celebrations in jj was okay.

what's the point

of clinging on to hope

when you go back to the box

where you keep your precious memories

and realise the memories it once used to hold is

slowly slipping away...

didn't see anyone from 4C1 other than kianseng and liangqian. went back to ctss yesterday as well. the rest were very unhappy with the fact that a fat person like me could smuggle myself in but they couldn't :P i like talking to ms ng :D

pizza hut with the s28 girls was fun :D i made 10 friends in an hour XD the other table had a birthday girl. so we said happy birthday to her lol. beats staying in ct, almost alone... nevertheless, i was happy there :D

sometimes i look at other people and start hoping that i was them. i was telling weiqi:

i can be left alone,
but i can't be ignored.

i can be ignored,
but i can't be disliked.

i can be disliked,
but i can't be hated.

i want to cry cause today was a horrible, tiring day.
but i'm very happy. cause today was an awesome day :)

weiqi, send me the pictures!

2009-08-02T20:56:00.002+08:00

surprisingly, the fact that i have no updated for so long doesn't make me go "oh my" anymore. i'm still hooked to the sinful internet, but maybe for a reason that it no longer blogger.

therefore, goodbye http://disaster-elegance.blogspot.com, it was nice knowing you :)

WAIT LONG LONG LAH.

see you soon! :D

同一道路

2009-07-17T22:32:00.003+08:00

很想念。。。

很想念和4C1在一起的那两年
很想念，很想念。

今晚，我累透了。好久都没有这么疲惫过。
从来都没有喝过酒，但今天和想把自己灌醉。
一直以来，我都好讨厌爱喝酒的人。
可是我现在好像把自己的头变痛，大声的尖叫。

每天只盼望可以早一点回家睡觉。
放学过后，没有人想出去，也没想和别人出去。
累垮了，累透了。
不是压力，是厌倦。

我。。。很不喜欢我现在的生活。。。
但我知道，我要为我未来的快乐把一切的精力豁出去。

我很现实，我知道。
但那是因为，我是人。

中学时期无忧无虑
就算难过了好有你
4C1 2A1girls <3

我垮了。

2009-07-08T20:33:00.002+08:00

when i get sad and depressed, i tend to think about the people i love... and a long list comes out. if i feel as if the person doesn't love me, i'd strike out that name first. even if there's only one left standing, life's worth living :)

“因为我相信每个人生出来是为了爱”

我也相信，就算明天是世界末日，我也要坚强地活着，一定要在我爱的人痛苦的时候给予他们一点点的爱心，好好回报他们对我的好。

我不能就这样倒了。加油！

say no to colours cause my life is dull

2009-07-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

photos shall be up next time. cause i'm lazy :D

friday sunday monday were fun days :D cause they were last day of school, weekend, holiday :D

friday was dinner with the 2A1 girls. met up with YUZHEN XINXIN AND SHIYUN and the jj girls. haha :D they seriously never fail to make me happy:D plan was KBOX but it changed to pizza hut cause kbox didn't appeal to everyone and was super overpriced.

sunday was meeting with 6D. i haven't met them since the day i graduated from nan hua primary? haha. it was actually quite funny. as bryan describes, "it's like orgasm and it hits the climax" wtf i know. came home and baked. jaffa brownies. mother father and brother likes it :D i gave it to the girls today. no comments but it shouldn't be that bad right? :( haha

today was make up kbox session with yuzhen liangqian xinxin shiyun and denise. + GST was half the price of friday's w/o GST. haha. :D had a lot of fun. shit man, their time is way too short >.<. rushed home to do EoM. if i got it right, it actually isn't that hard if you found the right article :D did it in like 2 hours and :D

school tomorrow. -FML
i've been attempting to quite bejeweled but i failed. and seemingly got better at it. it's like the sorcerer's stone. those who seek it won't get it. those who do not want it, will get it - FML

2009-06-22T16:32:00.003+08:00

the reason why i'm blogging is simply because my two holiday tests are postponed to who-knows-when and i am secretly very happy. i don't feel happy anymore though =/ anyway! some mount kinabalu photos up :D refer to facebook (hah, no link provided) if you'd be kind. if not, FORGET IT.

they very cute here right (^.^)v

and here :D

just to kill the mood.

i want to cut my hair :(

i feel wrong inside =/

2009-06-14T23:39:00.007+08:00

class pe on 10th june:D

my mother came back from thailand today so we celebrated her belated birthday with this! haha i make one leh:P

i haven't been blogging for quite a while and so i have missed out on
quite a lot of stuffs.

today i was on the bus and there was this boyfriend scolding his girlfriend very loudly just cause she told him something he doesn't want to hear =/ sigh poor girlfriend. almost everyone in the bus turned their heads at least once to stare at the guy/ check the girlfriend but he just kept scolding her. boyfriends like this suck.

i have always hated it when i see situations of 好心没好报. but it's a cruel world out there so i shall just shove it off and :D anyway i'm going to be happy tomorrow at 10pm.

i'm going to malaysia from 16th-19th. miss me? maybe not. haha. i doubt anybody would even notice my absence then. they say "Absence makes the heart fonder". I say "not in sight, not in mind". or maybe, in sight also not in mind. honestly, my presence never mattered anyway. nobody there would ever say " i wish yanwah was here". is it not true?

i think i've been getting too sensitive. even when i say "it doesn't matter", or when it doesn't seem like a big deal, i'd feel teary sometimes. yesterday i was thinking what if i lose my pillow and i started to tear. loser? yes.

oh well, it's a cruel world out there :( but i'm lucky cause i have my girls, you and my mother :D

2009-06-06T00:27:00.003+08:00

facebook called me an EPIC FAILURE and claims that i do not have a childhood because i do not know my disney quotes. i think shiyun and denise agrees cause i don't even know the "the tranny and..." something show. ~~i forgot again~~. and they filled in the title within 5 seconds.

WHATEVER. my childhood is not about sitting in front of the tv and watching walt disney baby shows :D it's about...

idk =/

2009-06-04T22:04:00.001+08:00

i'm not a chao ah lian!

i love you <3

2009-06-01T21:45:00.004+08:00

yellow ribbon project. give them a chance? teddy and priceless encouragement @ $10.

koreans.

your dream cow...

is cool.

i had long bid farewell to ferrero rocher. hello ondei singkong:) 5 for $2.

so you won't feel too guilty coming to my blog :)

argh.

2009-05-28T19:13:00.003+08:00

http://tnp.sg/news/story/0,4136,203349,00.html

The all-Singapore boys and girls teams from Raffles Institution (RJC) beat the all-foreign girls team and almost all foreign boys team from Jurong Junior College (JJC).

To many, 'Singapore' had won.

the question is, why did a simple and innocent game of badminton become so political? today, i really felt that mr koh really cares for JJC students. i'm even more proud to be a jjcian after this incident.

"for who gets the best players is the best team, not the one who trains the best players". what's so different between DSA and foreign talents? the country? all along, i thought singapore was cosmopolitan, willing to accept foreign talents and allow them to bring us to greater heights. but when i heard the news today, i felt as if JJ was alone. it was as if JJ was the only one who accepted the foreign talents.

JJ has international students from all over the globe, putting it nicely, we are a global educational hub. we don't judge people by grades, to better schools it's cause we don't have the ability. we don't judge people by nationality, because there isn't a need to.

then again, cause we are a neighborhood school, we have nothing to lose. which means we had nothing at first. we aren't like the better schools who have students who want to go in through DSA. we aren't a school which people will look up to. why? cause we are a neighborhood school and nobody looks up to neighborhood schools when there are top schools. isn't that why we need the foreign talents?

cause i admit, i don't have the calibre to get into top schools, that's why i'm in JJ. i'm not feeling sour at all, at least not anymore. but all i know, is that JJ doesn't discriminate. and i'm proud of that. i've never been in a top school other than in primary school, but i'm not ashamed of myself. at least not anymore.

for A division, singapore vs china.
for the olympics, china vs china?

if you're a talent, there's no reason why you should be denied a chance. isn't that what the foreign talent policy about?

but i know deep inside, when it comes to a war of words, hardly anyone would pay attention to this cause i'm not in a good school. and it's always the better schools that will win, not those hungrier for the victory.

correct me if i'm wrong. but i took a while to cool down and think about it cause it was bugging me badly. when i entered JJ, i didn't really like it. but the sense of belonging was forged in JJ and now, i feel a need to stand up for my school in the simplest way, for school pride is priceless.

2009-05-24T13:33:00.003+08:00

sometimes, all sombody needs is just a little concern you can spare. and definitely the ability to not think so deeply.

thank you<3

one more week :D

2009-05-22T21:11:00.002+08:00

mondays are insane.

haha we look forced.

idk why i look exceptionally happy here :D

help? =/

anyway, this week's been HELL. BCME test. if you still don't know, i'm taking H2 chem math econs and H1 bio. i screwed everything this week T.T i don't want to retain :( so i must work very hard :D JJ has weird grades.

>70 is A vs >70 is A

65-69 is B vs 60-69 is B

60-64 is C & you know the rest better than i do.

55-59 is D

50-54 is E

my mid year block tests are during the june holidays =/ LAST THURSDAY AND LAST FRIDAY T.T chem and math only though v(^.^)v and! still must do PW =/ so much to do :( so much for the holidays -.-" RUN BABY RUN.

i think my PW group is very good :P

i'm a happy girl though i totally screwed up econs. no more straight A's for econs :(!

2009-05-17T00:54:00.002+08:00

mother's day

lemon:) you were stalked! happy 17th! though i don't think 17/18 means much to you cause you're practically doing everything underage:P haha.

my dog ate my phone:( i shall take a photo of my dog eating my homework next time and show it to my teacher -.-

dasher for singapore! :D

doesn't seem that easy. haha

on friday, after touching up GPP.

yw: i have planned friday saturday sunday monday tuesday wednesday already. study.

hafizah: all in one word.

owned.

2009-05-11T00:13:00.004+08:00

HI YOU CITY DWELLERS. the week started out with a power failure =.=" so i bathed with candle light ^.^

the fact that knowing next monday (tomorrow) was a holiday made qiqi and i all high :D in an early monday morning... -.-

while resulted in my high temperature :/

but the day ended lousy cause we were training for syf till 10.15pm haha

okay, maybe not so bad with the camwhoring and friends :D

back on saturdays for trainings:(

before syf with hideous make up.

too tired to eat during breaks.

i baked on... one of the days. haha brownie + ice cream! :D

worship converters

one more part of life which i dont want to take a photo, and back to it.

HOMEWORK

2009-05-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

sasha<3

i saw shiyong with a girl today! :P

2009-05-01T22:37:00.001+08:00

<3 :D

dull cause my life isn't that colourful

2009-04-30T19:49:00.004+08:00

school is about studying. studying = not enough sleep

proof? my left eye has a double eyelid.not just today okay. yesterday also. i think double eyelids are nicer than single eyelids so im praying it'll stay and my right eye would miraculously become double eye lids as well.

tiffy baby would be coming back to visit on mondays! :D sorry about my bad hair day:(

haha mondays make me go crazy. my father'sshirt i was intending to wear for the play but i changed it.

this photo looks ghostly :P

qiqi!

had to pin up fringe for the drama :(

jj flooded today so i was spared the agony of running 2.4 on a hungry day :D

& i totally LOL-ed at my reply when qiqi asked me why i looked so tired on monday.

weiqi: why do you look so tired?

me: *hysterical laughter* i was telling myself " i dont want to fail chem..." when studying for chem yesterday and i started crying. *even more hysterical laughter*

so retarded please. last week was crazy. this week was damn bad too. cca till 10.15pm on monday and came home and started chionging my work. actually i started since saturday. chiong-ed till tuesday. wednesday i realised i was only left with one gp paragraph! :D

2009-04-25T23:46:00.003+08:00

happy birthday yanni! <3>

i haven't gone out with liangqian for like... how long? so that day we flew to jp and we met shangjun doing his science club thing there! = picture :D i like this picture cause we are all doing the show-your-teeth-smile. i love that smile cause it makes everyone seems happy! :D

DON'T LAUGH KAY. SEE THE HAIR. THIS WAS TAKEN LAST YEAR HAHHA. I just had to make it smaller XD

:D i am a native singapore citizen cause i've never seen the autumn leaves :( and i really want to experience fall cause its not too hot and not too cold :D unlike singapore and jj's LT 5 ... ...

crazy days in jj

2009-04-24T21:38:00.004+08:00

springy post-it.

this thing is a scam. $1! such a humongous package but it comes with a tiny cone :(

some 09s28 girls + one of the many mirrors in jj.

pinned fringe = monday.

owens tee + fbts = running.

tie + tie pin = special request.

bubble tea = lunch.

instead of saying jj = play + find time to study, i'd rather say jj = study + find time to play. like every other jc. seriously, the work load is *. and you minus marks for getting an mcq wrong in chem quiz*. and math test was *. and my grades are screwed though i thought i knew my stuff quite okay.

today, my teacher said, those that do well are those very kiasu, everything also memorise and write one. i read a blog, saying all you need is to memorize and not understand. so i'm even more screwed.

i openly admit. i'm not in those awesome classes or one of those better classes. but the stress is killing me and i know i have to score A's to pull up my grades now. talking about my class, our population is depleting T.T

像打翻了五味瓶子

2009-04-21T20:24:00.004+08:00

when there's someone there to take away your sadness, you can start focusing on being happy :P

or maybe,

when you convince yourself that you're happy, you are happy :D

idk but i have tons of MATH ( the root of all evil ) and chem to study for and i'm actually happy!O.O

okay maybe not, i just looked at my math and sighed :(. HAH. screw math. :( and chem now got physics inside... ... ... ... *emo* >.<

it's really not my fault that i feel inferior given the circumstances. i've gave so much and got back so little. or maybe, this was where i'm supposed to be. but looking at the situation now, i don't know if there's a place left for me. or if there is, will it be the last place? it's not what they say, it's not bad luck. and i'm sure about it.

do i even have a chance to go into mass comm in uni?

life in jj

2009-04-18T23:37:00.002+08:00

class photos on the day clarence left school:( pizza!

now, tiffy baby is leaving to np MASS COMM:( sigh. now, our class has 19 people left. and there are only 3 guys hahaha. girls school!

I SAW THIS ON JJ'S TABLE!

same watch :D

anyway:( i lost my camera on the bus home :( i brought it to the carnival where i only took 2 photos. shouldn't have brought it but what's gone is gone boring and hot! :( slacked in media like a pig :D whoo~ air con :D

camera <3

all the things in life

2009-04-12T18:31:00.006+08:00

1. mother! it's my favourite photo cause you can see me yet you can't :P

#2. the 4C1 2008 girls which made my sec 4 life much better.

#3. the 4C1 which gave me the best 2008 i could ever ask for.

#4. in JC you don't really have a sitting partner. so i miss my sec 4 sitting partner :(

#5. my friend since p5!

#6. people who are your accomplices. they kill time with you.

#7. 2A1 2006 besties :D yuzhen is coming back soon! *flips like a dolphin*

i love you people <3>

on a random note, asief is in cabinet council! he looks like he's making a super inspiring speech here while all he is doing, is nothing much.

valentine's with you girls +glenice <3

2009-04-11T20:22:00.005+08:00

没缘的人就算有一百次机会，最总还是不会在一起。

有缘的人就算错过一百次机会，最总还是会在一起。

this week is a bittersweet week. had 3 tests which 2/3 were screwed to the max. :(and tons of homework for the weekend. but company made the school days worth pulling through as thursday friday and saturday were great! :P <3

thursday was whooooooooooping awesome cause got no more tests! (although the two tests i screwed were on tttthursdayyyyy :( :( ) and then tadaaaaa i bakedddd!

marshmellow + nuts brownies

baked it for the first time with my super capable assistant/~~sidekick~~ (heh:P) and so far everyone who tried it, liked it! :P yay :D my mother said it was cause my super capable assistant helped haha :P idk if super capable assistant allows his/her photo up so hahaha.

whoo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

friday was outing with glenny and denise!:P good friday was rubbish. it kept pouring and we were not happy with the rain :( we played cards at kfc till we got chased out then went to cityvibe and had a little camwhoring session then poof! we went home and tada! the rain stopped :'(

today was ssssstuuuudy with hahahahaha and OMG i was happier doing math than chemistry cause chemistry need to write sooooo much for chemical bonding I DONT LIKE :(

2009-04-06T23:22:00.001+08:00

#444. no wonder the post is going to suck.

cause today is a day when i feel disgusting.

i hate today.

JINGLE BELLS :P

2009-03-29T20:28:00.004+08:00

entrance with the father

byebye with the husband.

we went to say "GOOD AFTERNOON MRS CHEN" and she was very happy! :D see the other people behind haha.

a very happy and pretty mrs chen :P

met these 4c1 people on saturday for ms seah's wedding :D

actually got with the 2d1 people also but i dont have the picture.

the pastor very funny :P he said "happy wife, happy life" :P heh.

went to watch 12 rounds with some of the people who went for ms seah's wedding then played pool. i was too hungry so i felt DAMN SIAN. but the company was good :D zhibin very funny haha. then after dinner i started regaining my energy and yay :P

i think i'm more sick today than the past few days argh.

2009-03-24T15:51:00.005+08:00

do not underestimate sinus man haha. underestimate is small cause in chinese, underestimate is 小看. sinus made me KO yesterday :(

anyway, i ~~totally~~ (almost) fainted yesterday haha. "your lips are paler than hazel's lah"- tiffany. (just highlight if you cant read thank you) which means i was almost white haha. i like having fair fair classmates cause it makes comparison so easy :P on the way to the general office, yahuan looked at me and asked if i was okay. sigh:( so i went home ( CAB FARE FROM JJ TO PASIR PANJANG HILL AT 8.30 AM IS $20.50. THATS THE COST OF ONE BAND TICKET :( )boo. was holding back my vomit (that sucks) and hoping i could fall asleep on the taxi cause my head was aching like :(

a links to z (okay new favourite phrase!) and my doctor said that sinus caused my ear to hurt and the dizzy spell and the fever and the hot eyes and the phlegm and my constant whinings :( sigh.

but tomorrow is clarence's last day in jj :(so i must go to school tomorrow! MY EYES ARE BURNING NOW ARGH. and lala, NO PE FOR ONE WEEK. which means i must control my diet if not i'd grow fat :( i must go photocopy the mc :( my doctor forgot to tick the medicine causes drowsiness thing so i emo cause i got no reason to sleep in class. I DONT OKAY:(

TALKING ABOUT MY DOCTOR. he's a family doctor so i personally love him but i've been seeing him way too often i bet he hates me now. within 1.5 weeks, i've seen him 3 times already. he hates me:( today he asked if i recovered from last time that thing. i said more of less and he said "so what are you doing here?" EMO :(

I WANT TO EAT PIZZA I WANT TO EAT LAGSANE I WANT TO EAT LAKSA I WANT TO EAT SUBWAY I WANT TO EAT ICE CREAM I WANT TO EAT M&M'S.

I MISS THEM :( graduation day was the last official day we had together so i'm putting graduation photos. sigh :(

2009-03-21T22:28:00.002+08:00

catched this show at vivo today. lame but quite interesting haha.

holland village got double rainbow today!

when one person starts taking photos, everyone starts haha.

today didn't end on a very good note but i really enjoyed myself today <3

i'm becoming a glutton. my appetite is like wahhhh~ O.O

2009-03-20T11:01:00.002+08:00

WHY ARE WE SO PRO!?
WE ALSO DON'T KNOW!
WHY ARE WE SO PRO!?
WE ALSO DON'T KNOW!
WHY ARE WE SO PRO!?
WE ALSO DON'T KNOW!
WHY ARE WE SO PRO!?
AIYOOOO!~

HARLOW PEEPO. EYE AM BAKZ FROM LINEEEEEEEEE CAMPPPP!

the F1 CHEER IS NOW A JJ CHEER HAHA COOL NOT.

i think those primary school kids are 100 times more matured than some secondary school kids who only know how to find people to BASH US UP when we "OFFEND" you WORHXZX. I AM SO SCARED SIAAA. i sound so bitchy here hahahahahaha.

i totally forgot about ms seah's wedding and SHIT I FEEL LIKE NOT GOING NOW CAUSE I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO WEAR.

Now, our class has been invited to miss seah's wedding ceremony on the 28th march, 1030am. Location is at the Wesley church, beside the National musuem of singapore. - weiyang's email.

HOWXZXZ IDK HOW TO GO IDK WHAT TO WEAR IDK IDK IDK CAN I JUST NOT GO :(

so many rants here i cant think properly im going to die. no punctuations proper grammar hahaha so dumb shall blog next time BYEEEEEEEEZ.

2009-03-08T21:34:00.002+08:00

when two parties play tug of war, and you're the ribbon in the middle of the rope, you don't get a chance to decide. you can only go to the side which pulls you harder, but not to the side who didn't pull you as hard cause they don't want you to endure the pain of getting pulled.

i think a lot of things are RELATIVE. cause econs say so. but everything is not ceterus peribus cause econs makes false assumptions. so don't think that everything will stay the same cause nothing will. we have 24 hours a day and time is a limited resource. feelings are infinite and will never run out. so don't play tug of war with me cause i don't have the energy to be pulled. you break both my arms away and what's left in the middle is my heart. i make sacrifices for both parties sometimes and both should appreciate that instead of faulting my absence.

the party that loses only doesn't get the ribbon anyway. but the ribbon doesn't get freedom eitherway. why can't you just let the ribbon fly in the direction of the wind? in the end, the one that would suffer most is the one getting tugged anyway.

i hope OWENS wins sports meet cause owens guys damn zai :P

but yea it was my fault so yea, i know what to do next time if you don't give me last minute notices assuming i'm 24/7 free.

forgive me. i just completed an econs essay. "just" is relative too.

2009-03-05T22:42:00.001+08:00

if everyone were to kill themselves and try to kill other people when they're overly stressed, a lot more people would have died by now.

2009-03-01T02:08:00.002+08:00

http://202.157.174.100/20090217-ss-catabuser/Player.html

ARGH F WORD.

I TYPED THE WORD OUT SO MANY TIMES ALREADY I JUST HAD TO CENSOR IT OUT ARGH TO HELL WITH THIS.

PISSED FROM THE INSIDE MAN.

2009-02-22T20:05:00.002+08:00

happy belated birthday valerie :D

haha it's so cool knowing someone for 7/17 years of your life :D haha.

went to valerie's house today to celebrate her birthday. she's a very lucky girl. her parents bought the wii o2jam (i think) for her. so. freaking. lucky. kay lah, i'm a noob at it but haha so cool. what did i receive for my birthday? hmm :(

was just some girls (huiling wenning liangqian xinxin valerie and myself) at first. then some guys came to crash it. must be melvin's idea :P haha but was fun :D played some games and left at 6.20pm.

valerie, i wish you all the best :D meet up AGAIN soon! <3

thank you for being so forgiving,

for being so thoughtful and caring.

hate math tutorial hate math tutorials hate math tutorialssss hate math hate tutorials argh :( school's till 5.30pm tomorrow with only 2 half an hour breaks. no wonder last week seemed like forevaaaaaa. first day of school so long zzz. basically, these are the times i end school.

monday 5.30
tuesday 5.30
wednesday 1.30. with cca around 5-5.30
thursday 3.30
friday 1.30 :D no cca for me :P

but friday also very sad :( everyone got cca / ends lessons late for them :( = loner time. thursday i was super sick so i brought sasha to class to cuddle<3

i'm getting used to my class :) it's just lessons and breaks but we're fine :)

i smelt a flower and thought of you.

2009-02-19T23:34:00.002+08:00

SOMEBODY EVIL is bombarding me with the past msn conversations we used to share in sec 3. i completely remember nothing but reading it makes me miss secondary school life a lot.

it seems like i was very carefree once upon a time. ALTHOUGH I SOMEHOW USED TO RESEMBLE A MINOR ~~EMO TWIT~~.

i wonder when the next time i can have such light hearted conversations which involve zero percent school work/results.

TODAY I WAS SO ILL THAT I SAID.

i feel like an old man. i feel so sick.

and everyone took the chance to say i was a dirty old man &*@#! i shall never say that again.

2009-02-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

i'm such a sucker. i cry every single time i watch this.

bonds <3

2009-02-15T21:37:00.001+08:00

as we move on and make new friends, we tend to forget / neglect our old friends.

i guess it's time to face reality. no more living in a dream.

friends never last forever.

2009-02-14T23:18:00.003+08:00

i am back from JJ camp! :D

if you're happy and you know it hug your friend :P

overwhelming emotions. argh.

JJ night was simply awesome. seriously, i really think JJ night is what makes JJ camp so cool. and the wet games too :D and the enthusiasm.

when we were cheering at around 12+pm, there was this auntie who started scolding us from the hdb blocks. then we were just led to shout even more till she gave up :P heh. AND THE COOLEST THING ABOUT JJ is that when you cheer damn loud, there'd be echoooo oo o o~ and people actually do the actions for the cheer.

i think i know why JJ is so good and character building. really. and i really hope it works.

step you like a gingerbread,

never let you step us back.

step you step you oohlala~

steo you step you oosh!~ :P

my current blog song makes me think about the time yuzhen was teaching me how to sing it haha. i miss her :(

happy valentine's day! <3

dear friend <3

2009-02-08T22:29:00.002+08:00

you're leaving tomorrow. you'd be back in december but how often can we meet up during the duration you're back? when the 2A1 girls meet up once in a while, where will you be? i hope you'd do fine in melbourne and find your friends. if not you'd be very lonely there. find an angmoh boyfriend or whatever boyfriend okay! if he bullies you just email us girls! we'd be backing you up! :P right or wrong, we'd be by your side.

lol angmoh boyfriend sounds so classic.

dear friend, i vividly remember the first day you officially became a part of 2A1'06. all of us were filled with so much uncertainties. we were all wondering if this girl was supposed to be here. was she part of us? was she friendly? who shall go and talk to her first? haha. and somehow, you blended in so naturally as if your absence in sec one was not meant to be. so naturally that sometimes, i actually forget we have only known each other for merely a year.

during these 3 long, tiresome years, you've always been there for me. encouraging me, going high with me, giving me advices, showing me concern... never once have i seen you cry. yet you've always been by my side whenever i tear. why is it that you're so important to us? why do you make yourself so irreplaceable then leave us? :( whenever you miss us, just flip through the gifts we have gave you yea?

if you can't adapt in melbourne, just come online and talk to us kay? i know the time difference makes things kinda difficult, but that's what EMAIL is meant for isn't it? you're really somebody i refuse to lose contact with. so please make an effort to email us around once a week when you're very busy?

i have been thinking about the fact that you're leaving for so long ever since the day you held the bbq at your house after prom. 20th november. that day, i'd never forget. i still rememeber the few of us sitting around the table and just started crying. i cried through the night. and i just cried for a few nights. now, tears are coming back again.

if i had a chance, if it'll help, i'd plead you not to go. but everyone knows you have to go. and that's best for you. so i wish you all the best. if you need anyone to talk to, we girls are always here for you! <3

2009-02-06T20:38:00.002+08:00

i remember the first day of school at JJ.

WELCOME TO JJ! :D WELCOME TO JJ!:D x100 (at 7.10am in the morning. the OGLs are really something)
there's a hweeling coming over me~
JJ SPIRIT!~

long queues long breaks long lectures long talks long cca open house long try outs long long long long long emelia long. sorry, i'm going insane. everything in JJ is so long. other than the skirt.

camp is coming next week. "12th, 13th and... 14th!" (repeats the 3 dates for the millionth time) "WHOA WHOA WHOA. VALENTINES DAY GOT CAMP WHOA. CAN GO UP TO THE GUY OR GIRL YOU LIKE WITH A ROSE"... etc etc etc

2009-02-05T20:16:00.002+08:00

all i really really really want now...

is for saturday to come...
for sunday to never end.

and for school to never start.

too tired to add colour today.

2009-02-04T22:20:00.002+08:00

i am going to cry.

i just found my badminton racket after a long search! i swear i knew it was in the store room and i just placed it there er... 6 months ago? heh. oops XD then my father searched for a while and said he honestly thinks that the racket isn't in the store room. so i searched the whole house. THE. WHOLE. HOUSE. then when i was very upset, he found it in the store room! i was so so so happy i was going to cry.

there's badminton try outs tomorrow. JJ's badminton girls all from china. they seem very pro. i scared.

then i was thinking. what was i to do if i lost something very precious to me and couldn't find it back? what if i lost opportunities and chances given to me more than once? what if i lose my very close friends? what if i lose my family/my dog? what if i lost you?

aiya i don't know lah. i think i'd just shrivel up and die in a corner and get eaten up by mealworms. very disturbing. but that is really the exact picture i have in my head now omg. i can imagine myself as small as a fake and cheap bling you find on most handphones. and the humongous mealworms eating me up. eeks :(

mummy:(

i didn't like school on monday.
i think school was quite good on tuesday.
i didn't like school today.
yay, i'm going to like it tomorrow :D

2009-02-01T21:11:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD.

i'm blogging and the time now is... 9.11 :D i shouldn't be so high cause school is starting tomorrow. but I KNOW SO MANY PEOPLE WHO ARE GOING TO THE SAME OG AS ME HAHA WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY OG!? old gang. hur.

anyway! I AM POSITIVELY EXCITED THAT JJC HAS BAMBOOS AND IS WORTHY OF PANDAS :D YAY

WE ARE ALL PANDAS! :D

this is a completely ... post.

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING SOON IT'S COMING OH MY IT'S COMING! I FEEL LIKE IT'S JUST OVER. BUT IT'S COMING IN MERELY 9 MONTHS OOHLALA~

no, i didn't get high.

2009-01-31T20:49:00.002+08:00

tagged by valerie cause she said "Tagging anyone who is willing to be tagged. Spreading the bad karma.". see lah, now i got bad karma :(

Directions : Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with fifteen random things, habits or goals about you. ~~At the end, choose ten people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. You can't tag the person who tagged you.~~ too lazy + people won't do = emo yanwah :( so no point making myself emo right!? :P

1. if i can't get into mass comm in uni, i'd hate myself for giving up my chance of going to poly.
2. my mother thinks my results suck when i actually think it's not that bad.
3. i think it's cause my brother scores very well. 255 for psle and 6-4 for O's. =.="
4. my brother blames it on me for not being a good study-er. :(
5. i am very upset about the first 4 points.
6. i love my new laptop but i haven't installed microsoft word/powerpoint. shit
7. school is starting on monday and i feel like being vulgar.
8. i use picasa 3 instead of photoshop.
9. i can't edit photos well
10. i want to have a pet dog :(
11. i want to be a radio dj when i grow up.
12. i like to talk but i don't think i speak well.
13. people overestimate me.
14. i leave very bad first impressions.
15. i prefer leaving people to figure out more about me than telling them about myself. it's so dumb. " hi! i am a lesbian and you're exactly my type, sweetie". hur=.="

no tagging :P just do it if you want to. i don't think anyone will? haha.

i think i am very fated to wear brown. my kindergarden school uniform was yellow + brown. secondary school is white + brown (my mother insists its some funny colour). jc's uniform is... BROWN BROWN. ;(

there ARE 10 people from 4C1 going to JJC before appeal. yahuan, bryan ty, tin weiyang, kokti (HAHA SAME SCHOOL FOR 12 YEARS), yuzheng, zhibin, mayhui, yanni, liangqian, me. but i think many people are appealing so i'm going to get very lonely :( PEOPLE APPEAL INTO JJC OKAY!?

2009-01-30T20:55:00.005+08:00

10/40 of 4C1 appointed to JJC.

? people appealing to blah blah and blah.

JJC/ACJC/AJC = little CTSS.

i remember the first time i stepped into ctss :( i was damn sad. hardly anyone i knew well was in the same school as me. no one i was close to was in the same class as me. at least JJ will be better i guess :D

WAHLAO BUT I HEARD THE ORIENTATION CAMP $70 LEH. okay lah actually quite cheap. aspire camp costed me $100/150? but people with edusave wouldn't know so, oh well... :(

proper post next time. headache, sneezing, runny nose, itchy eye.

OH I'M CRYING.

2009-01-28T04:36:00.003+08:00

I AM SO 101% EXCITED. i am not annoyed or anything. just find this very fun/true? haha

the below is copied from http://www.mancouch.com/mancouch/690678963/wtf-why-do-women-cry/?ref=FPP (unless parts in red. haha i just had to say something -.-)

Women cry a lot. I kid you not. They do. I’m surprised no scientist has used a woman's tears as an alternative source of energy. It’s as plentiful as the sun. (yea, we're so useful :D )

And to tell you the truth, I have no FLIPPING clue what it means or what to do when a woman cries.First - let me explain this to women.

Crying isn't a man's best forte - let alone understanding when someone does cry. There are only a few reasons I can think of why a guy would cry.

1. Watching the Boston red sox win the World Series (whether it's tears of joy, or total shock - that's up to you)
2. Being responsible for your wife's credit card bill (seriously, you are SO SAD. if you have a wife then TAKE CARE OF HER WILLINGLY PLEASE)
3. Plucking just one nose hair (oh? haha ouch?)
4. Throwing away a good can of spam
5. David Hasselhoff (excuse me?)
6. And some weird disease that affects your tear ducts

...and um...yup, that's about it. Can't think of any other reasons.

But just recently - it has come to my attention that women "JUST CRY" sometimes. Yes. No reason. They just friggin CRY. (like how guys just mention a vulgar word like it's meant to be)

W T F!? ( he made it larger. not my doing )

THAT MAKES ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE. Is there an excess aggregation of sodium based H20 in your skull that you need to release periodically?

Does your cheeks need to be washed and regular water doesn't do the deed? Do you find you get "high" off the blurry vision you get when crying? Are you thirsty? Your Pantene Pro-v Guava creme shampoo moisturizes your hair, but couldn't find something that moisturizes your eyelashes? What the heck is it? (actually, crying gets me thirsty and gives me blurry vision)

The worst part is the conversation you have to try to understand. (how about we say, you have to try to LISTEN)

crying girl: *sniff sniff*
me: what's wrong?
crying girl: nothing - nothing's wrong.

Analysis: ok - this makes no sense. It's like me having fruit punch oozing out of my skull and someone asking me if i'm ok and i say to them "nah - I'm fine." Basic HUMAN rule of thumb, if there's ANY type of liquid coming from your skull - something's up. So easily, my next thought is:

me: well, you're crying though, so surely something has to be wrong.
crying girl: no, nothing's wrong.
me: I don't get it then - you're just crying for no reason?
crying girl: nothing's wrong.

Analysis: Ah yes - the classic. We've seen this before. The classic yes means no, and no means yes thing. She's just afraid to tell you something. It's your time to shine and be compassionate and ask about what's really going on. So I ask: (er, if she's afraid to tell you something, shouldn't you do some self reflecting or something?)

me: do you just not want to tell me?
crying girl: no, I just need a 'good cry'
me: what the? a "good cry"?

Analysis: Since when is a cry any 'good'? That's like me urinating blood and saying "man! that was awesome! How satisfying was that!" Crying can't be good. When i think of crying, I think of only bad stuff - like Jesse from Saved by the Bell after she took caffeine pills, or Nancy Kerrigan grabbing her knee, or that time when I was 4 years old, I punched my uncle, but couldnt' reach his face and just punched the nearest thing around my height - all bad stuff.

So asking what a 'good cry' is was very important to me. And that's when it the big answer hit. The ultimate enigma. The one statement. That actually made the sphinx' nose fall off.

crying girl: sometimes, we just need to let it all out.

Analysis: !?!?!?!?!???!!??! How does that make any sense? (actually, yes it does)I just need to let it all out. That's what we guys say about our beer gut or intonations that our digestive tract can perform - not about crying! (huh, then spitting vulgarities? seriously, i think guys who use minimal vulgarities are the best guys ever.) It makes absolutely no sense!!!!! "LET IT ALL OUT" Bottom line - you don't "JUST CRY" just to "let is all out" in hopes you get a "good cry" - this is crazy talk!! Which is why every man can only come to one conclusion at the end of all of this:

me: omg - I knew it, you're a friggin alien.(you are so courageous! you actually said this while she was crying? why, if i was the girl, i'd make sure you drown in my tears)

That's right my friends - we're gonna have to chalk it up there with all the other weird alien rituals you all practice. From the sleeveless turtlenecks, the buying a million dollars worth of stuff from the 'sale' rack and thinking you're actually getting money back, the 3 inch sticks you walk on, and cutting your hair every time you have problems with the significant other. We're on to your alien behavior. (i wonder why guys like girls now. i should go be a tomboy. HAH LIKE REAL -.-)

But nevertheless, we know why you invaded our planet. Although we may NEVER fully understand what this all means, we'll do our best to live harmoniously. (oh, world peace :D)

So as a token of peace and goodwill, we'll give you what you need most during this time and that's simply a shoulder to cry on. In fact, we'll give you two and throw in two arms as well. (aww~ i finally see some love here (^.^)v)

Do women just cry for the hell of it? And what does a 'good cry' really mean?

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THEN GOT ONE GUY COMMENT. OMG I LOVE THIS GUY.

I think a woman's tears are among the most beautiful and precious
creations in all the world. If any man witnesses a woman crying, he should
consider himself most priveleged and honored above all other men.
Should he have the courage to seek to assist or comfort a woman who is weeping
and she accepts his offer of a tissue, a shoulder, a chaste embrace... what
a gift.

A man must realize that a woman's tears are a manifestation of her
heart and soul, like the juice of the sweet fruit that is her
heart, when crushed by sadness, or bruised in anger and offense, or
when bursting with joy. To drink of that moment, whatever its cause, when
offered a cup overflowing with those tears and asked to drink, and you drink...
why does not every man see the blessed and beautiful gift in this?

A mountain of gold pales in comparison to the value of a single
tear, for gold is torn from dirt and lifeless stone. A tear comes from
the depths of a woman's heart, a thing more rare and precious than gold or any
other fine thing of the earth.

http://www.xanga.com/Ancient_Scribe (his site)

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i felt like putting those lines i liked in italics. but i realised i liked everything. awww~ so i went through another round of selection. and it's still... almost everything. his other half is the luckiest lady ever.

oh no, i cried reading his comment. it's so touching <3

2009-01-28T02:11:00.001+08:00

OMFG GO SCHOOL MUST WEIGHT HEIGHT AND WEIGHT OH NO OH NO.

OH NOOOOOOO :(

HOW!?!?!? IF I JOIN TAF CLUB HOW. IF I OVERWEIGHT HOW. IF I GAIN WEIGHT HOW. IF I SHRINK HOW. I DON'T WANT TO WEIGH HEIGHT AND WEIGHT LAH PLEASE DON'T LIKE THAT PLEASEEEEEE.

I WANT TO SLIT MY WRIST NOW CAUSE I AM AN EMO PIE :(

2009-01-28T01:42:00.002+08:00

school is starting soon...

i'm so used to the holidays, and actually like the holidays, that i don't want school to start!

when school starts, i got to...

wake up early
do homework
watch less tv
study for tests
make new friends
get used to a new environment
.
.
.

what's wrong with the holidays? you can

wake up late
dont do homework
watch a lot of tv
go out with friends whenever you want to
stay in your comfort zone
go out late
stay carefree
=
more colourful life
=
more happy!

i like the holidays. i don't like school.